when I'm in a relationship I feel like suddenly everything has a deadline. I have to start being more successful, I have to think of ways to be charming, attractive, and fun all the time, without hesitation. the relationship could end at any moment over any kind of mistakes or misfortunes. and it's a lot of pressure, really. sometimes I think I'm ( Read more... )

say what you will about me but I really deserve better than this. God this hurts so much

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the past few days have been better. I'm getting more used to being here and getting more job offers. I didn't think living matt would suck but his mood swings are annoying. I've been djing more again and going again. I like meeting new people, it's fun and I think my other friends groups in nj were getting stale. people are doing more with ( Read more... )

I'm on a train to new York from new Brunswick where zach had a failure of a party. japanther was supposed to play and I was supposed to DJ but the cops got in the way of that. I got to play one song 'police and thieves' by the clash ironically right before they showed up.

I hate the train back to new York, new jersey is far away from Brooklyn ( Read more... )

so, CJ moved out today cuz she's moving into her dorm tomorrow. I hope this doesn't ruin everything. I'm sitting in my car outside the lanes cuz I'm waiting for mike. I hate not having someone to do things with. I forgot that my friends are unreliable and don't do anything outside thier normal boring house party lives. oh well. might go to ryan's ( Read more... )

ok, so I'm getting sick of jersey. I have a decent apartment and a lot of good friends, but jersey is kind if an all promises with no fruition kind of place and it's really getting old.

I always say things I want to do but I think it's time to make a big step and move forward otherwise I'm gonna just be stuck here and never grow. so I think I'm ( Read more... )

May the 4th be with you!

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haha my ex is moving to texas! not that I care about her, her existance is just annoying sometimes.

man I love falafal, and the zombies.

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this thing is lame cuz it doesn't let me see my friends journal. u can only update with it.

anyway. went to the city last night. for Kate's birthday. she turned 21. I drove up greg, joe and emily and we met up with Kate, Ryan, Christian, Sohaib, pete, Katie, knife and vans. and also Maura and al were there. the place was called home sweet home. ( Read more... )

so I'm working on a Saturday night at backward glances for the first time in awhile. I'm so bored I decided to update my livejournal. hi Janna! I want to nap pretty bad. should I grow my beard back? I'm trying to have a party later but a pipe burst or something in my basement so I think I can't now. hm. blah blah blah

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